24th October 2009

What a nightmare. Lately, I'm having this nightmare, about me being so f*cked up and everything's so sepia. I dunno what does that mean, I just hope nothing would happen to me.

BAM! 7:00 PM, I woke up from my catnap, I looked up to my mobile.
1 New Text Message
"It's from her...", I said reluctantly, sighing, and opened the message.
"I am now.", what was written on the message, she woke up from her sleep too.
I asked what she's doing right now, and she replied:
"Family meeting. There will be a little ceremony tomorrow."
"What ceremony?", I replied, something's really wrong, my sweat broke.
"Engagement.", she replied. I was shocked, trembling, I dunno what to do, what to respond, but I respond anyway.
"Who's going to be engaged? You?", I asked.
"Hahaha. Nice guess. Yes, it's me. "
"Whoa! Congrats! Who with?", I asked again, I know this question would hurt me a lot!
"Thanks. With a regular guy..."
"Regular? What is he? French fries? XD"
"I dunno why I used that term. OK, I take it back."
"You should use the term 'ordinary'. XD"
"Haha. Anything but ordinary, please..."
"OK, how about extra-ordinary?"
"That's cool."
"So, what are you doing right now?"
"Dunno what to do right now."
"Why?"
"I'm bored."
"You should be happy."
"Be happy for what? Nothing makes me happy at this moment."
"The fact that you're still alive. You should be grateful that people really wanted to be alive.", I forgot what I sent her.
"That's nice, you're right. Thank you."
"Did I say something wrong?"
"No, you're not. Don't take mine negatively."
"Ah. I should have known that short replies are one your characteristics."
"You got it. "
""
"What should I respond to that? Haha."
"Which 'that'?"
"That ?"
"You have the rights whether to respond to it or not. XD"
"Hehehe."

I was thinking, blankly, about myself. What am I supposed to do now? In my misery, I'm asking her another stupid question:
"When the engagement took place? Was it few hours ago?"
"No, it's tomorrow."
"Oh."
"Ah."
"Are you not sleepy?"
"No, not yet."
"Wow. Why?"
"Too much napping. Even though I'm sleepy that doesn't mean I can go to sleep instantly."
"Hmmm... Have you prepared yourself for tomorrow?"
"Bah, what should I do? Hha."
"Hmmm... Never mind that."
"Alright."

Another few minutes blank moment, she send me a text message:
"Oh, Have your RELL1 class discussed about CDA? What's that? I don't understand it at all..."
"What's CDA? Put it simply: I haven't."
"Critical Discourse Analysis. Oh, okay."

I dunno what to do now. I dunno what to think about now.
Totally blank.

"Greater the fall, greater the ascension.", what was whispering in my head.
I hope so.

This is Fajri writing, over and out.